Autumn Threnody

 here's a little creative writing i wrote back in the day, hope you guys enjoy it!

enjoy !

I sat in the empty room by myself. The bartender comes over to me and before I could look up at him he murmurs ‘on the rocks?’ I nod. The television set on the far top corner blasts the news, nothing new, nothing joyful.
‘He’s fucked up again but his looking the other way’
Hitting the bottle will drown out and numb any mistakes and regrets i have made in the last 24 hours.
Should I have done it differently?
Should I have done nothing at all?
Questions that will haunt me for years to come or even a life time. I try to blank my mind, not letting a single thought get into what nimble sanity I had left. This alcohol, this substance of abuse will do the trick. Enough to cure the ache, at least for the next few hours.
‘He’s so fucking far from the person he aspires to be’

I sat in that uncomfortable wooden stool for hours. A soul or two walked in and out for a quick drink. Corporate men dressed in corporate clothing with corporate shirts and ties. What have they done? Have they really achieved that much to be so happy? They laugh amongst each other before dropping their glasses and leaving. I stare at them through my peripheral vision. They continue to laugh as they exit. I envy them, I envy their lives.
The bartender mumbles inaudibly, I nod again.
‘A breaking in spirit, a breaking in promise, a breaking in him...’
I slowly stumble out of that forsaken fortress. I edge at a snail's pace to the train station. I take a seat. 24 minutes till my train arrives. I close my eyes and pray for the 24 minutes to pass by unnoticeably.
Disrupted by a loud group of youths. There indecent language with their indecent behaviour captures everyone’s attention. They walk up to two men dressed in business attire, they exchange words. Words become crude, vulgar. The youth dressed in jeans that slope down to his thighs, checked shirt with tears throughout the sleeves. He swings with a metal bar in his tightly gripped hand.
the man falls to the ground
the youth flees
his friend yells for help

I smile.

‘please take me out of a world without any heart
a world we built to serve out selfish fucking selves’

Lyrics kindly borrowed and humbly appreciated from Boston’s hardcore scene HAVE HEART.

Starcraft + Razer = Blinking lights

Just the other day I purchased one of three razer products specially made for Starcraft 2. Since I do most of my late night gaming on my alienware m17x i thought a full sized keyboard would be of most help. 

I purchased this board for about $143AU from computer parts (and yes that is a fair bit for a board).

Well basically, this keyboard is not FULL SIZED. Well it does have the full length qwerty keys BUT the numpads and the directional keys are mashed up. I thought this was a bit silly since this keyboard was intentionally designed for Starcraft 2 gamers. And as someone who plays starcraft you would know some people do use these directional keys to glide through the map. Personally, i do not so this wasnt such a big problem for me. 

The keys are all nicely polished with a nice matte feel which is such a delight to push. Responsiveness is good with the 1ms respsonse time that is featured. TWO gold plated USB plugs are required to power this keyboard which is connected via a 7 foot braided cable (standard for gaming periherals). The touch and the feel of the keyboard is quite great, though it does not come with a wrist rest which can be quite uncomfortable for long gaming seshs.

Now to the main feature, the APM lighting system which runs through the entire keys layout. It also lights up under the board on both ends and 4 distinctive lighting on the top and bottom of the board. there are around 16 colors i think. and changes according to your current apms. the lighting also changes for certain circumstances. for example when youre base is under attack, the board will blink red. which is quite cool to look at.

the settings for the colors of lighting can be changed from the razer configurator which is not included in the box. instead a manual with a website directory is included to advise you where to download the utility. i thought this was a bit lame since i have paid a fair bit of money and they couldnt even afford to give me a disc, LIKE LAWL. 

all in all this board is alright, the cool thing is that it blinks and shit with mad colors other than that its quite standard. 150$? i should of considered the razer blackwidow mechanical keyboard which is roughly the same price.

i guess this piece of equipment is for die hard starcraft fans but even then i dont think they would think anything of it.

P.S. this is in no way a review, rather just my personal experience and thoughts of such an equipment